Overdue Update

Wow, so I really fail at updating my blog! Sad. Very sad. I can't believe it's been 7 months since September. It was a good month. :) So much has happened since then. I don't really know where to start. I'll do my best.

I've almost completed 2 more semesters of Music School. It's always a joy to spend time with my kids...okay that's a total lie. 3-6 year-olds could never be a joy all the time. Haha But, I enjoy it, nonetheless.

School-- wow. I can't believe that I will be done with high school forever in less than 2 months. Crazy. I'm so glad to be done, but now it's time to man-up and realize that the rest of my life comes knocking...no...actually I think a more accurate metaphor would be life is hot on my heels threatening me within an inch of my life to decide my future or suffer the consequences. Yeah, that sounds a little more accurate.

I've been auditioning all over the place this year to try and work down my audition anxiety. Its working ...I think. I've discovered that I do better at spontaneous auditions than ones I psyche myself out for a long time in advance. I'm really excited about TITP this Summer and I hope the experience will be just as great as it was last year with 7B47B.

Ah, the heavy hitter...relationships. I've learned something interesting in the past few months. When you enter into an exclusive relationship...be it friends or romantic, there seem to be an imaginary pair of blinders that set you away from everything else that you once used to value. I've found this happen to me in more than one circumstance with both male and females alike and both friend and romantic relationships. What have I learned? Keep your friends close and your enemies closer? No. Let go. I've decided that exclusive relationships aren't all they're cracked up to be. I want to have freedom and not feel like I have to answer to any one person at all times...that's what parents are there for! I like it this way.

So, here's where I stand now. It's 2010. I've changed and grown so much. I'm really bullheaded about a lot of stuff. I wish I wasn't, but that's who I am and how I like it. Sometimes I wish people saw me differently, but I love the friends I have and that they accept me for who I am. I'm 18 and legal. I can do all kinds of things now that were illegal before and it feels pointless, but fun. :) I have a jam packed Summer ahead and I know it's going to be bittersweet as I send all my friends away to their new college homes. I'm going to college? Guess so. It's a very weird concept, but I can't wait. I've been done with the home schooling scene for so long now. I'm more than ready to spread my wings! I guess that's all I've got for now...such a vague overview...oh well...more next time.
Xoxo,
-H